|Fuck In The Fire
||[Aug. 13th, 2007|11:54 pm]
|||||my chemical romance||]|
i have issues. with you.
alot of them.
do you want to lose it all?
do you only want me for sex? call me when you need some. hope it doesnt fuck me up. hope i am ok when i leave...
im so torn up. i get false hopes too. just like you.
just like everyone. i am human, i have feelings. feelings that will not go away. because i know. i just know. you arent working on you so we can work on us. so excuse me,
excuse me for fucking caring. excuse me for trying. excuse me for changing for you just because i wouldnt lose you again. so sorry i wanted this. so sorry i had a bad moment in life and had hard times and wasted your precious time while i dealt with it. so sorry for thinking we could be lovers AND friends. so sorry for thinking you couldnt leave me, so sorry for beleiveing you when you said you wouldnt.
and then you did.
stuck in the moment, dead at the scene. this is the life that you wanted, right? so turn off all the lights.
dont it feel like somethings not right in his kiss tonight.?
could it be you? could it be the lies you are filling his heart with. the false dreams he can sleep on. well did you know, his dreams are living nightmares, when he wakes and you arent there. when you are right with him when he breathes but not when dies....
how do you expect this to work? how do you expect me to live MY life like we were never anything. so sorry i am not instantly over us in the split second you walked out my door. not like you. sorry i wanted it to work, i wanted this. and now, what? i am suposed to not care when you talk to her all the time and then tell me you guys are just friends. fine whatever, ill buy it. ill even buy that so is everyone else. what am i? a friend. or a fuck. a fuck in the fire. the heat of the moment when you need to be touched, to be fucked, to be controled..
to be loved.
cause thats what it is to me when we do touch.
i love you with my hands. i love you with my kiss, i love you with my entire being.
and you. you dont see your eyes when you look at me like that. you arent the same girl. not the one i knew,. not the heart i once knew.
dont say you have changed like you are the only one who was effected...because you know i was as well.
and if it makes you less sad i will die by your hand, hope you find out what you want. i already know what i am. if it makes you less sad we can start talking again. you can tell me how vile i already know that i am. ill grow old. start acting my age. itll be a brand new day in a life that you hate. and it hurts a whole lot but its missed when its gone. call me a safe bet. im betting im not. im glad that you can forgive. im only hoping as time goes you can forget. if it makes you less sad. ill move out of this state. you can keep it to yourself. ill keep out of your way. and if it makes you less sad ill take your pictures all down all the pictures you paint i will paint myself out. so call it quits, or get a grip. you say you wanted a solution. you just wanted to be missed. let you're beauty unfold. holding onto your self the best you can. you are the smell before rain, you are the blood in my veins.
what is this to you?
maybe when the room is empty, ,aybe when when i am dont with thinking you can think me whole. maybe when i am done with endings this can begin. maybe when the walls are smaller there will be more space. maybe when i lokk for things i cant replace.
everythign in my world will always change. but you. remain the same. always.
i just wish you could see you through my eyes. and then maybe your understand why i cant quit this.
now i know, that i cant make you stay
but wheres your heart,
but wheres your heart,
but wheres your.....
and i know, theres nothing can say
to change that part,
to change that part,
so many, bright lights that cast a shadow.
but can i speak?
well is it hard understanding
a life thats so demanding
i get so weak
a love thats so demanding
i cant speak
I AM NOT AFRAID OF LIVING
I AM NOT AFRAID TO WALK THIS WORLD ALONE
HONEY, IF YOU STAY YOU'LL BE FORGIVEN
NOTHING YOU CAN SAY CAN STOP ME GOING HOME
can you see, my eyes are shining bright
cause i am out there
on the other side, of a jet black hotel mirror
and im so weak
is it hard understanding, im incomplete
a love thats
so demanding i get weak
I SEE YOU LYING NEXT TO ME
WITH WORDS I THOUGHT I'D NEVER SPEAK
AWAKE AND UNAFRAID
ASLEEP OR DEAD